That giant wall of text about organisation.

[BlackMajor]

Two things to comment on your statements there Ren.
Please stop swearing on the forums, it's unprofessional.
Secondly, Saint actually watches over the server from the dynmap, coming on whenever he senses somethings up.

Aside from that, good luck with any self discovery you may or may not be experiencing. i.e. the "Personal shit".